This is a hard one... I decided the title should be small. I don't know that I can make it any smaller or bigger than what it really is..
So if I appear to be happier than I should be or laugh at jokes that aren't really all that funny, it's because I love laughter.
I love the sounds it brings, the giddy feelings, the tears, and the relief. I especially love the light that shines in the eyes of the one who truly laughs.
If I appear distant when you see me, it's not you. It's me. I am remembering and it's taken my thoughts away.
If I appear sad, it's okay. I am having a moment.
If I stare at your family. I am in awe and really miss so much of mine.